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I miss you....You know who you are.

Ramblings

I blog. It's what I do. For some time, there, I was a blogging fool, but then life happened. Well, having two babies in a row happened, and other kids grew up, and out. I miss those days where I could just sit down to the computer and pour my heart out to the world of "nothing."

The Nothing. Kinda like on The Neverending Story. The Nothing was this, well, nothing, that was taking over the land. I have a friend that could tell you the name of the land, and all of its characters, and most likely quote a few of its good lines, but as for me, I'm calling the Nothing, the Nothing, and the land, the land.

Side note, sorry.

I miss me. I miss being able to ramble on about whatever was on my mind. Now, I find myself censoring myself. What I say may not be the right thing, or offend someone, or cause some discomfort in the land of nothing. I miss not caring.

I'm just gonna say it.

I feel like the Nothing some days. I've been suffering from severe depression, post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and a few other things that I may or may not have the courage to put out into cyberland.

Today, I find myself really down in the dumps. I'm struggling with quite a load, and I wish I could just spill my emotions out onto the table, but I can't.

I'm working on myself. I've been working on my junk now for awhile, and I am on my way to finding a voice.

A voice in the land of Nothing. interesting.

On my heart

This verse was on my heart today. It's nice to know that there is a hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seekme and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares theLord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”

P90X - Day ??

Well, I'm still at it with P90X. I'm not sure the day anymore, but I'm on the 4th week. I got deathly ill over the weekend and took a couple days off, frankly because I couldn't even get out of bed to move, must less kick box and yoga myself into shape. I've noticed that I'm more tone and significantly more flexible. Being flexible really is an advantage in everyday life..one that I never knew could help, but getting out of the car, rolling out of bed, and getting up off the couch have become easy for me!

Tonight, I go to Zumba. There are a few of us girls who have gotten together and are doing this together. We officially have an accountability group!

I'm really working on my health, and exercising more. I hope to be able to continue on this journey for the rest of my life....within reason. :)

Braces

Rachel got her long-awaited braces last week. She had no idea what she was getting into, but is really starting to like having them. She can't wait to show all of her friends her new grill.